Apropos of Cordelia

Why are you giving me the secret signal to shut up?


IT'S WANTED WEDNESDAY!!!1!!!
jen
cordeliasmarz

Okay. So.



Bit awkward.

I started this post on Wanted Wednesday before my last post but as I said I wanted to do an update first rather than straight into this since I've been feeling rather good and Wanted to let you know!



But then I ended up going to sleep, sleeping most of yesterday too.. and now it's 11:50pm but when I actually get round to posting I'm guessing it'll no longer be "ThursJay" since it takes me about 10 minutes to proof read let alone post.. but shh. Jay is my boy and let's just pretend it hasn't taken me 2 days to post this.

It's Wanted Wednesday every Jay in my eyes.



..............

So!

I've been meaning to do a post on The Wanted for a rather long time and they were just (when I started this post they were just) on The Chris Moyles Show on BBC Radio 1 so I feel inspired to do a massive appreciation spam of love.



Firstly I'd better introduce you if you aren't familiar with them already.

This is them.



Left to right: Jay McGuinness, Nathan Sykes, Max George, Tom Parker, Siva Kaneswaran

They are an adorable boy band of 5 who were put together in 2009 and uhrmm.. Wikipedia has more info if you're into that since I'm not the greatest of explainers. They're basically just typical immature ridiculous hilarious boys but I love it. They make my soul happy.

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Start the Week with GREATNESS!
jen
cordeliasmarz
I'd been thinking for a while but especially the last couple of weeks about whether I'm capable of utilising the kind of mediums I enjoy to convey political, sociological and humanitarian views and.. messages? I guess? rather than straight-up essay-writing and discussions. And listening to the programme below on the radio freaked me out a bit because it's EXACTLY what I needed to hear! A discussion about "how the arts tackle politics and current affairs"!

  

I really recommend listening to it - click here for the podcast page where you can download or listen again - all the past episodes are there too so I assume this one'll be available for a long while too which is great!

I was starting to worry because many films, books, poetry, lyrics etc. that I have appreciated in the past, I've only understood a lot of the subtext and "messages" afterwards via articles, essays, discussion etc. so it made me think that maybe writing fiction won't get my point across fully and maybe I'd need to write clear essays elucidating my points or do something like Stephen Fry (HERO)'s podgrams so that it's more obvious what I'm talking about and clearer to understand and take things from. But now I see that even visual art doesn't have to be so hard to interpret and art in general doesn't always have to be so cryptic. It's just finding the right way to do it.
Marina Diamandis (HERO numero dos) said: "I think art is about challenging the way each person thinks - that's all it is. It's not telling people how to think or about being famous, it's just about challenging people's perceptions, and if I manage to do that then great!"
I'm feeling very positive right now! On an exclusion diet to find out what foods might be making me ill and been sticking rigidly to it (partly by wearing inspiring nail varnish..) and generally feeling very sanguine re the future!

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jen
cordeliasmarz
For the first time since I was 7 years old I feel truly and completely positive that I'm going to live my life and be well. Though I'm not sure how much I was thinking about Life when I was 7.. I was probably too busy living it. Well now I'm going to actually live again. Took a while but I think I might actually get well now. It's made me who I am today and I don't regret a second, but I'm finally ready to be the person I deserve to be.

It's not all bad. Heightened self-consciousness, apartness, an inability to join in, physical shame and self-loathing - they are not all bad. Those devils have also been my angels. Without them I would never have disappeared into language, literature, the mind, laughter and all the mad intensities that made and unmade me.
-Stephen Fry, 'Moab is My Washpot'

It’s like in the great stories, Mr. Frodo - the ones that really mattered. Full of darkness and danger, they were. And sometimes you didn’t want to know the end, because how could the end be happy? How could the world go back to the way it was when so much bad had happened? But in the end, it’s only a passing thing; a shadow. Even darkness must pass. A new day will come, and when the sun shines it’ll shine out the clearer. Those were the stories that stayed with you; that meant something, even if you were too small to understand why. But I think, Mr. Frodo, I do understand. I know now. Folk in those stories had lots of chances at turning back, only they didn’t. They kept going, because they were holding on to something.
-Samwise Gamgee, 'The Lord of The Rings: The Two Towers'

Snow White and the Huntsman
edgar and simon
cordeliasmarz
Quick post just to say

Oh wait OK well that's ridiculous the reason I couldn't embed the trailer is because the film people keep taking the trailers down off YouTube because of copyright. WHY. The more people to see the trailer the more will see the movie surely? Jesus Christ.

Anyway, ignore all this ridiculousness, I can't remember ever being this excited for a movie in my life.
You can watch the trailer here.

Let's talk about LOVE. Maybe. But mostly just my being obsessed with a beautiful family on YouTube.
garf + carey ♥
cordeliasmarz

I actually did 90% of this post 5 days ago but was too tired to finish it, then the next day I started watching Green Wing, so posting this got put on the back burner.
But now I've finished my Green Wing post and watched a few videos on YouTube to warm up for this one, so I'm ready to finish it off and move on with my life!



Though I must say that this is just the most recent in a long line of unfinished posts.. but it's all good stuff (to me anyway) so I hope it's interesting!

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Green Wing
jen
cordeliasmarz
Straight off please just let me say that I ADORE Green Wing and I've done an absolutely massive pic/gifspam below, so if you're not up for discussing, skip right to that by scrolling past the text or clicking here.
If you are up for discussing, consoling and possibly helping me understand what I currently don't about the series, please read on.



If you haven't seen Green Wing I don't recommend reading this post as it's very spoiler-y but I really recommend watching the show. You can read about it here, here, or comment and I'll tell you what I like about it etc. :)

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Care for some salade?
jen
cordeliasmarz
Just amused by the coincidence of two of my favourite YouTubers putting up similar yet very different videos on the same day.



Rosianna http://www.youtube.com/missxrojas http://hermionejg.tumblr.com/



Grace http://www.youtube.com/user/dailygrace http://gracehelbig.tumblr.com

Ima totes make me dat haloumi!
I don't eat eggs or bread but I can't lie, I am tempted by Grace's invention. I want the stuff zones from a few weeks ago more though.. I think they're probably more healthy? I don't know. I have wheat and meat-free versions of things like that sometimes. Generally my diet consists of 99% vegetables and I don't think that's healthy. I'm sure there's some kind of disease you can get from eating too many vegetables.. Case and point.

I hope Rosianna makes more videos like that because I can never think of anything to eat on such a restrictive diet and it gets depressing! Even Grace's random creation was kind of inspiring!
Also pretty much the only things I know how to make are rice and pasta... and grating cheese, putting it on nachos and putting that in the microwave...

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Sometimes I need a cheesy pick-me-up, okay?
Speaking of which, Gold Forever by The Wanted just came on my iTunes. I've yet to do a post on them but they're my favourite. Hopefully write about them/picspam soon!

Save Doctor Who Confidential!
horrible histories - problem
cordeliasmarz
If you didn't already know, the BBC is axing Doctor Who Confidential.
This is a SIN.
Click here to sign the petition to save the show! There are currently 27,445 signatures so hopefully the the decision-makers at the BBC will take notice.

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...Despite the truly awful last episode of Confidential (to go with a truly awful ep of its parent show)... really didn't plead their case did they?
But there is still good there! The whole premise of the show and a lot of what they do is good. They just waste a lot of their resources which is a shame.
I wrote this complaint to the BBC a few days ago when I first heard about them cutting Conf and my friend Amber said "you make so many great points and you do it in a reasonable and heartfelt way".... in case you needed some sort of testimonial before committing to reading this.



If you'd like to write your own complaint you can do so here.

I got a generic e-mail response which said they "understand [I'm] unhappy the series is coming to an end" but they have to make tough decisions. Though it said "We’d like to assure you the feedback we’ve received has been included on our audience log. This is an internal report of audience feedback which we compile daily and is available for viewing by all our staff. This includes all programme makers and commissioning executives, along with our senior management. It ensures that the issues our audience raise with us are circulated and considered across the BBC." so hopefully someone'll see it and POSSIBLY reconsider! And surely if they've got nearly 30,000 people wanting it on they have to at least think about it! And it really can't be hard to make just a short Conf like I said.

I've been posting everything on Facebook lately but it's so much neater to do it here - plus most of my Facebook friends don't even care about Doctor Who, let alone Conf so now I've sort of initiated my return onto LJ I thought I'd post this here.

I've missed LJ and everyone on here.
I hope you are well?

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Ha! Just posted and read through what I wrote. Apologies for the epic awfulness of it all! I genuinely have missed everyone and posting on here.. I'm sure with this level of skill in writing the feeling is absolutely mutual!

The Catcher in the Rye... of Fire.. in the Arcade... with Andrew
garf + carey ♥
cordeliasmarz
Sorry for being away for so long.. will try to post more soon. I'm still living.
I just wanted to post this right now as it's important to me right now.... right?

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Basically I read The Catcher in the Rye.
And love Arcade Fire.
And those two things have helped me feel better about stuff.
If you're interested in any of the above, please read on :)

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Schooling Fry? (not really - I just thought that was a neat title.. lost all intrigue now but shh)
jen
cordeliasmarz
I was just on Tumblr and saw this quotation from the QI series 2 blooper reel of Stephen Fry's response to Jo Brand's asking "... can you foresee any situation in the future in which we might be able to use this information... usefully?"

Stephen:  "It’s an extraordinary thing, it’s always the children who say “sir, sir, what’s the point of geometry or what’s the point of Latin” who end up having no job, being alcoholic and they don’t notice that the ones that actually find knowledge for its own sake and pleasure in information and history and the world and nature around us actually getting on and doing things with our fucking lives. It’s an odd thing."

I do tend to agree with most of what my hero Fry says and there is a lot of truth in this, however he doesn't (not in this quote) take into account the fact that schools don't always tell us WHY we learn things and how the things we learn would apply to real life situations. If we don't know the point in what we're learning then why learn it? That's how I assume most children (I did) think before they realise for themselves how things work and the reasons for things on a deeper level (and become interested in things just because it's interesting.. when you're forced to learn stuff it can take the fun out of it). And I agree that the people who don't progress from that stage probably won't get as much from life, but I think there must be some way of educating children on a deeper level earlier on so it isn't such a waste learning things we don't fully understand. I think we need to give children more credit as they aren't stupid and I feel they can learn faster than we think. I say this only from my own (admittedly poor) memory as I don't know any children to discuss things with or.. evaluate their maturing speed or anything! But I feel like so much of my learning was wasted as I could've got a lot more out of it had I known at the time the background and thoughts behind what I was learning instead of just being told I had to learn it.

I was always good at English (shame this mess I'm writing isn't a good example!) and regularly got A grades but I didn't really understand all of the reasons for the essays and poetry and analysis and it felt silly to be assuming there was all this meaning behind a single word etc. when there was no way of knowing the actual writer's intentions! It wasn't until sixth form when I told my teacher I thought poetry was pretentious that we discussed this on equal ground and she helped me understand. A lot of this sort of thing IS growing and understanding as an individual but there's also the guiding force of someone telling you and helping you along. Although as a child you haven't as much experience and understanding of emotions and life etc, I'm sure there must be ways to get across to children the importance of poetry and art etc. and not assume they won't get it as otherwise it does feel like a waste. When we ask what the point is in things it's because we want to understand and learn fully, not just be told "you have to learn it.. just because".

I'm extremely tired (my legibility depletes rapidly come the night.. well, just the further away I get from when I last slept.. why am I explaining this? I assume it's a widely held truth that one gets increasingly useless the longer one stays awake.. unless one is Jack Bauer) so I could be spouting complete rubbish here, but these are just some thunking thinks I thought I'd share. If anyone would like to discuss please comment :)

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